糖果

「The future or the thing that gleamed. The present was so very, very good. I wasn't trying to wreck Candy's life. I was trying to make mine better. We wanted to share absolutely everything. Especially the best bits.」


「Here is the deepest secret that nobody knows. Here is the root of the root, and the bud of the bud, and the sky of the sky,in the tree called life, which grows higher than soul can hope, or mind can hide, and this is the one that is keeping the stars apart. I carry your heart. I carry it in my heart. 」


「We'd found the secret glue that held all things together in a perfect place where the noise did not intrude. Our world was so very complete.」


「Everything we ever did. we did with the best of intentions, but events tumble! And the years pile up.The world is very bewildering to a junkie.」


「What do you think this is about? Sunday Lunch. It's a pretty simple thing. But with you two, there's no such thing as simple. It‘s the drugs! The drugs always come first. Do you have any idea what you have done to my family? To me? What happened to that beautiful little girl?」


「Once upon a time, there was Candy and Dan. Things were very hot that year. All the wax was melting in the trees. He would climb balconies, climb everywhere, do anything for her, oh Danny boy. Thousands of birds, the tiniest birds, adorned her hair. Everything was gold. One night the bed caught fire. He was handsome and a very good criminal. We lived on sunlight and chocolate bars. It was the afternoon of extravagant delight. Danny the daredevil. Candy went missing. The days last rays of sunshine cruise like sharks. I want to try it your way this time. You came into my life really fast and I liked it. We squelched in the mud of our joy. I was wet-thighed with surrender. Then there was a gap in things and the whole earth tilted. This is the business. This, is what we're after. With you inside me comes the hatch of death. And perhaps I'll simply never sleep again. The monster in the pool. We are a proper family now with cats and chickens and runner beans. Everywhere I looked. And sometimes I hate you. Friday -- I didn't mean that, mother of the blueness. Angel of the storm. Remember me in my opaqueness. You pointed at the sky, that one called Sirius or dog star, but on here on earth. Fly away sun. Ha ha fucking ha you are so funny Dan. A vase of flowers by the bed. My bare blue knees at dawn. These ruffled sheets and you are gone and I am going too. I broke your head on the back of the bed but the baby he died in the morning. I gave him a name. His name was Thomas. Poor little god. His heart pounds like a voodoo drum.」



「Everything's dead. Everything's turning blue.」


「And that was it. That was all that was scattered to the winds. Casper was gone. Schumann was lost. Candy was off getting better. The coast. Rehab. And I...was. I was just... The world was full of startling new concepts. I couldn't think.I couldn't breathe. I was waiting for her to come back. Because she was everything. She was everything to me. 」


「There's no going back. If you're given a reprieve, I think it is good to remember just how thin it is.」


「When you can stop, you don't want to. When you want to stop, you can't.」

     第一遍看，很唯美。有关爱，沉溺，放纵，青春，责任。。。人生如初见，candy和的初遇，透明而梦幻，唯美的令人窒息。年轻而健康的性爱，充满着爆发的激情，然而天堂和地域亦不过是一瞬间而已。混乱，暴力，疯狂，咒骂。他们都没有错，错的是年轻的心根本承受不住生活和责任的磨练。
   人生若只如初见，何是秋风悲画扇。画面最后，当终于拒绝candy,动容亦不过如此。最真挚的爱，就是舍得放手，然后让你幸福。既然我给不了，那就放你自由

电影的开始有一个熟悉的场景，Heath Ledger饰演的Dan带着他爱的女孩Candy走进了游乐场的转轮，两个成年人在一群孩子中间十分的抢眼，而Geoffrey Rush饰演的Casper站在转轮之上微笑的注视着他们，转轮开始旋转，一开始很慢，Dan和Candy笑着，紧紧的相牵，转轮越转越快，像一张流出歌声的唱片，Dan亲吻着Candy，旋转的世界里，仿佛只剩下了他们两个。

我看电影的时候总会走神，恍惚中仿佛时光重现，眼前的影像开始变得黑白，很多年前那个叫安东的巴黎少年，他聪明漂亮敏感，可是他的父亲离开了他，他的母亲和另外的男人混迹在一起，他在学校嘲弄老师，他和唯一的好友一起逃课，他在游乐场进入了那个转轮，越转越快，他笑着，好像他是静止的，整个世界都在围绕着他旋转。

Candy也许真的是有双重的含义，她是他爱上的女孩，她是让他们两个人一起沉沦的海洛因。他们的爱情一开始就是和海洛因连在一起，Candy吸毒过量，而Dan用另一针的海洛因让她醒了过来。Candy有一个丰裕的家庭，只是过分溺爱她的父亲，控制欲超强的母亲，把她所有的天赋梦想和虚无盲目的爱情埋葬在海洛因的幻境里；Dan的家庭没有提及，而Casper则像是他精神上的父亲，他盲目的相信他的一切，甚至带着Candy和他一起注射高浓度的吗啡，那大概是他们第一次的毒品体验，然后他们就再也离不开这种Candy了；Casper是个有身份的医生，却也是一个暗地的毒品贩子，他利用吗啡招来来他家里和他乱搞的男孩们，也和他们一起陷入其中，他对Dan有着特殊的感情，从他看他的眼神中就能够感觉得到，最后在眼睁睁看着Dan和Candy进入绝境之后，他平静的overdose反倒像是一次解脱般的自杀。

就这样看着他们chase the dragon，从最开始那虚幻的Heaven一步步开始下坠，到Earth，最终来到Hell。或者痛苦，或者享受，或者无法自拔，那种挣扎撕心裂肺，而宿名都像是被安排好了。也许drugs真的能激发那些艺术灵感，那些让我们沉溺的音乐、画作都是极度眩晕之后的产物，可是他们到底得到了什么，快乐还有折磨？只是这其实也许就是生活的真相。

电影的高潮在Candy写在墙上写满房间里的那个疯狂的真实的故事里，我突然想到我在焦躁的时候也会抓起笔写每个在脑海里出现的无规则的词语、句子，那种感情很真实，同样也很绝望。所以后来Dan含着泪拒绝了Candy，两个Candy是一体的，纵使他有着多么爱她，这爱的化学反应却让他永远也戒不掉另一个Candy。爱的瘾，drug的瘾，快乐的瘾，折磨的瘾，to be addicted or not，还有什么区别？

Note：澳大利亚的独立电影，根据Luke Davies的小说改编，参选了今年的柏林电影节和多伦多国际电影节，Heath Ledger和Abbie Cornish很真实的饰演了一对junkie lovers，而Geoffrey Rush的角色更是对他的毒瘾有着哲学上的解释，更有评论说Abbie Cornish会是下一个Nicole Kidman和Naomi Watts。D版商们翻译的名字是“爱情毒针”，还不错，只是每一个无法摆脱的诱惑，都是毒针。

關於毒品的電影, 看得太多了. 而看candy這套戲, 純粹只是因為這個名字.

電影開始時, 是dan的自白, 他細說他的candy, 聽到candy這名字, 頓時毛管楝. 由abbie cornish演candy最貼切不過, 她是那種甜到滿瀉的女孩. dan和candy瘋狂地的愛上對方, 他們從毒品中找到可以逃避現實,只容得下對方兩人的天堂, 從彼此的沉淪中找到如糖果般甜美的快樂.

全片由heaven, earth, hell三部份道出他們兩的愛情關係, 導演沒有刻意去說教, 只是將現實放在大家眼前, 卻又拍得如夢如詩的美麗, 不知這片子有多少是忠於原著, 儘管有不少不完美之處, 觀眾只要用心去感受那種愛到沉淪至自我摧毀的淒美就夠了.

若你明白愛可以愛到不能自拔, 看這套片一定會覺得很痛, 痛得只好放手.

"Candy", 一個女孩的名字, 可以代表糖果, 也可以比喻引誘人的毒品, 就像一顆吃了又想再吃的糖果, 是糖衣陷阱? 抑或甜得令人醉倒? "Candy"也是今屆香港國際電影節的閉幕電影之一, 是澳洲導演Neil Armfield的作品, 之前從未看過他的電影. 此劇改編自同名原著"Candy"的小說, 作者是Luke Davies, 一本關於愛與毒癮的書, 他說:"There were good times and bad times, but in the beginning there were more good times."

可能由於電影說的是毒品和它怎樣摧毀人生, 對象可是全世界的觀眾, 亦有這個野心, 所以感覺上演員都刻意避免用太重的澳洲口音.

很喜歡用遊樂場裡的旋轉離心機作開場, 令人會心微笑. 但快樂的開始未必等於愉快的結果. 故事是一個悲劇, 一對年青男女, 男的是愛寫詩, 女的愛畫畫, 一個暑假, 海洛因成了他們的"良伴", 無法停止. 飾演男主角Dan的是"斷背山"主角Heath Ledger, 女主角Candy由Abbie Cornish飾演, 去年在電影節中的"Somersault"有不俗的表現. 兩位演員演出也不錯, 頗喜歡Abbie Cornish, 不是很豔麗, 但就是有廿來歲女孩特有的那份青春無敵氣質, 很誘人. Heath Ledger在此片演出比"Brokeback Mountain"更自然, 很有那種潦倒頹廢感.

電影中段有點拖拉和鬆散, 沒有凝聚力, 兩個年輕演員雖不俗, 但未能撐得住全套劇, 有點悶場, 不夠緊湊豐富. Geoffrey Rush飾演的Casper, 是個富有的教授兼癮君子, 戲份較少, 亦不見其發揮機會.

電影中最震撼一幕必定是Candy和Dan抱著夭折的不足月嬰孩傷心欲絕睡在醫院病床上, 嬰孩灰藍色的臉孔, 張開了的小口, 令人毛骨悚然, 極之駭人.

電影結局Dan的決定給人難忘的感覺, "青春的脆弱"就來個告別吧. 很喜歡Candy獨白那一段:"Oh Danny boy..."

link to my blog: http://dorablahblah.blogspot.com/2006/04/candy.html

下午躺在毯子里看完了Candy 白色窗帘上阳光停留的地方 颜色像蜜糖一樣

最后还是感动了 dan对老板说 跟她说我已经不在这儿工作了

他怕见到candy 害怕看见她还是那么青春明媚 却不能再拥有她

曾经不是没有过希望 两人坐在海边计划着未来 一切那么温暖完美

希斯莱杰戴着毛线帽子 笑起来嘴角温柔的笑纹让人有上前亲吻的冲动

到后来他难受得受不了 把自己关在浴室冲冷水 头发总是湿淋淋的

最后的最后是他一个人在空荡荡的餐厅里 外面的阳光这样亮 照得人睁不开眼

他坐着一动不动的背影 孤孤单单的 看起来依然给人安全感

没有追出去 因为梦都醒了

可是你还在哭吗